She was wearing booty shorts and one of the hoodies she took from me. Once I arrive at the door i expect her roommate to answer but I guess her roommate wasn't home because she answered. Once i collected myself i get out of my car and walk into the building. I left a note in the box explaining why I did it and if she wanted to talk to meet me at our spot tomorrow at 6 pm. Right now i'm sitting in the parking garage of her apartment with her things she left at my house balling my eyes out. It's never happened but i'm scared it would. Another reason i broke up with her is because i was scared i'd be at a party or something and I'd get with someone thinking it's her because my brain in programmed in a way that makes me always think of her so i'd be kissing someone else while thinking about her, making me think i'm getting with her. I thought it would be easier to come out knowing she wouldn't get hate but she was my motivation to come out. In all honesty i don't understand why i did it, i'm nothing without her. I tried to explain why i was breaking up with her but she couldn't understand. I wanted to come out SO bad but I loved her and we were a couple so any hate i got she'd get too. I was a player when I was with boys, i didn't like the idea of love and then she walked into my life never planning to walk out but I fucked it up and pushed her out of it. I didn't cheat, i didn't abuse her, but i told her we would get married and grow old together, then went off and broke her heart. i LIED to her and i didn't even mean too. Meaning i broke her, i hurt her when i promised her i never would. I've tried to reach her in every way possible i've even went to her apartment but her roommate told me it's not a good idea to see her like this. She was my happy place, and now she's gone. She was my soulmate the love of my life my best friend.
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